I’ve got so many plans drafted up in my head for the future except the future is now.

 I know where I want to go and want to do and I even know where I want to live. What kind of person I want to be.

I am secure in these plans. A million strangers could tell me “that’s stupid and here’s why it’ll never work out” and I would smile and nod but my plans remain the same. I want to live near the beach and in a warm, cozy apartment and have a schnauzer and drink black coffee and own a motorcycle and I want to wake up every morning with someone that I don’t condemn myself for loving.

Today I’m going to go buy some pink hangers and go through my clothes and redo my wardrobe. I’m going to go on Amazon and order button-up blouses and seersucker shorts and light plaid pants and maybe even a hat because I’ve decided to become a hat person. Over the next few days I’m going to clean up my room little-by-little and this weekend I’m going to build a big ass bookshelf all by myself but with just a little of my dad’s help. I’m going to act like I’ve got a girlfriend and I’m the woman of her dreams. I’m going to act like I’m stronger than I really am, and dance in the newly created space in my room like everyone is watching. I’m going to go read aloud some more books that maybe I don’t understand as well as I think I do, and write some poetry I’ll regret in a day but then admire in two, revere in three.

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